Chapter 83 To Let It Go

Zheng Xiaoguang quietly snuggled up beside Bluegreen-Clad in the room. “Thank you,” she said.

She felt grateful that he did so much to comfort her.

“Do you still hate him?” Bluegreen-Clad asked softly.

Zheng Xiaoguang knew that he was talking about Su Han. She felt somewhat hesitant and frowned slightly, since she would always tell others that she had gotten over him and forgotten about this thing a long time ago.

It was a lie. She hated Su Han.

After a while, she replied seriously, “I hated him before, as he always told me that his parents and all his relatives and friends were stubborn and he had to compromise with them. He even broke up with me before earning a chance for me to meet his parents.”

She could not remember how many players in Flying Deity had tactfully asked her how she had wrecked her relationship with Su Han. She only remembered that since breaking up with him, she had never logged onto Flying Deity again. She had even applied to her company for a business travel to avoid her parents and friends, as she was worried that they would ask her about her relationship with Su Han.

She did not know how to explain this thing to them.

A week later, she broke her foot and thus was sent back home. When Blooming Pear Tree came to visit her in the hospital, she lied to her parents that he was her college senior.

Zheng Xiaoguang pursed her lips and said, “Su Han never knows how much he hurt me and my parents. Over the past year, I haven’t been able to fall in love with anyone or accept anyone’s love. My parents dare not allow me to date anyone I meet on the Internet.”

She had felt inferior when Su Han had just broken up with her.

Su Han’s accusation made her feel that everything was her fault. She blamed herself for being immature and losing trust in her boyfriend. She believed that it was she herself that wrecked their relationship. She even thought that she was not suitable or eligible to love anyone.

Therefore, she dared not question or “pester” Su Han. Instead, she hid from everyone and quit Flying Deity to avoid Su Han and all her friends in the game.

Afterwards, many of her friends helped her to see that the failure of a relationship often was not the sole responsibility of either party. Both she and Su Han should be responsible for it.

Despite that, she still dared not love another man. She had tried her best to maintain her relationship with Su Han and did not know what else she should do to get a long-lasting relationship. She was afraid that she would have to face another failed relationship after loving another man wholeheartedly.

Upon hearing her words, Bluegreen-Clad gently hugged her and said, “I’m sorry to hear that, Xiaoguang. I wish that I could’ve been there to accompany you.”

Zheng Xiaoguang shook her head and said, “Don’t say that. You really treat me well enough.”

Over the past year, she had felt inferior, troubled and worried and gotten used to suppress her own emotions. She dared not trust anyone in case that she would be disappointed again.

It was after she met Bluegreen-Clad that everything began to change.

When Baby 520 ambushed her and when Little Girl and Venus slandered her, Bluegreen-Clad always stood by her side and helped her out. He made her realize how great it was to have a man to rely on.

Her resolve to remain single was shaken when she saw him teasingly asking Li Lei to help him chase after her.

Unfortunately, Su Han popped out again and told everyone that his ex-girlfriend was a petty and unreasonable girl.

Han Meimei and Li Lei never doubted what he said, and Han Meimei even complained about Su Han’s ex-girlfriend in front of her.

After that, she could not help but to ask Bluegreen-Clad some probing questions. When she thought that Bluegreen-Clad looked hesitant, she immediately decided to push him away.

Zheng Xiaoguang gently hugged and said, “When I knew that Never Deeply Attached is Su Han, I was very afraid of being recognized by him. I was even more afraid that you would hate me because of what he said about me. Given this, I…

“I took the initiative to tell you the truth and ask for a divorce.”

The reason Zheng Xianguang had done this was that she wanted to keep her dignity and avoid getting hurt again.

“What a silly girl.” Bluegreen-Clad touched her head and sighed.

Upon hearting that, she thought, “Yes, I’m silly and cowardly. Fortunately, Bluegreen-Clad doesn’t leave me because of that. He has even found a way to help me come around. He’s the one that I can rely on.

“Thank goodness, I met him. Because of him, I know what I really want.”

She took a deep breath and said, “Bluegreen-Clad, thank you for inviting him here. Now I can finally say that I don’t hate him anymore, because I’ve already gotten over him.”

Just now, when Bluegreen-Clad had held her hand and taken her away, she had realized that she had already gotten over Su Han. She felt awkward upon seeing Su Han again not because she still hated him but because he reminded her of how silly she had been three years ago. She felt embarrassed about having been so stupid before but did not feel a thing for Su Han anymore.

She even discovered that she became unprecedentedly calm when talking about her relationship with Su Han again. She even began to feel grateful for Su Han since he had dumped her mercilessly and refused to see her in the hospital. What Su Han had done made her feel desperate, so she could hate him without any hesitation.

It was much easier for her to forget about hate than to forget about love.

“Why do you keep thanking me?” Bluegreen-Clad touched her head and continued, “You don’t need to say that. You’re my girlfriend.”

Zheng Xiaoguang looked up at him in disbelief. “What? Didn’t you do that to help me get over Su Han? Do you really want me to be your girlfriend?”

Since entering this house together with Blooming Pear Tree, she had felt surprised about everything here. Upon seeing Su Han, she had thought, “Bluegreen-Clad must’ve organized this party to let me meet Su Han again and help me get over this man.”

Upon hearing Bluegreen-Clad call her his girlfriend, she got confused again.

“I like you, Xiaoguang.” Bluegreen-Clad smiled slightly. “I, Lu Mingxuan, a 28-year-old single man who has a house and a car and runs a small company, now formally ask you to start a relationship with me.”

She could not believe what she had just heard and wondered, “What? Did Bluegreen-Clad say that he likes me?”

“You don’t have to say this to make me feel good.” Zheng Xiaoguang tried her best to make her voice sound calm. “You really don’t need to say so because you take pity on me.”

She thought to herself, “It’ll be great if Bluegreen-Clad really likes me. But that’s impossible. I know myself well.”

Bluegreen-Clad looked at her and said calmly, “You know what. It was I who asked your big brother to marry you off to me for the alliance between the Matchless and the League of Strong Families.”